Kimberly Diane Elam

Kimberly,

Yesterday was the 1st anniversary of your passing.  I strained from my home to send my best wishes to your Mom, Julie ( a strong woman I have recently met and admire greatly), sending my love to lift her up on a day she was dreading. 

I saw her this morning, while she tried to say she made it through the day, it was clear from her appearance it had been a tough one.

What I wanted to say is this, while I never had the pleasure of meeting you, your spirit lives on.  Her love of you shines on. 

Your grandparents are who I see nearly daily and their love for one another is what inspires me to love my kids, my dad (we call him Opa, like you call Ernie) and to love the man I've chosen to live my life with the last four years out loud, so everyone knows.  Love what I have and be ever so respectful of the fragility of life.

Peace be with you and your loving family.

Julie Tacker

 

 

I woke up with a shiver,
the bad news had already been delivered.
I was hoping sleep would somehow change,
The cold empty, feeling of pain.
No one should die so young,
No one should leave so soon.
Walking out on an unfinished plate,
she has not already ate.
She was a flower late to bloom,
Her spring had just started.
The flowers of her future,
were just around the corner.
I was there for her birth,
We were meant to grow old together.

The pain reaches many pinnacles,
none of which I can climb.
I want to go back in the past,
I can't hold it inside.
I heard you were smiling,
Before you made your trip.
That notion is a blessing,
But I slip I cannot grip.
Why you left makes me wonder,
I know it was not your plan.
They say his intent is not transparent,
None of this is grand.
I am waiting for a wake up,
To discover all of this is untrue.
Some awful mistake someone made,
it just was not you.
What I would not give to change the fate,
We miss you too much here.
If you leave us forever,
The sea will overfill with tears.
No one loved so much should die,
For all the pain is left behind.
The longest journey lies ahead,
For all the grief within our mind.
It is a momentary process,
It is not possible to dictate pain.
We all want one more conversation,
If only once again.
Is there anything we could have done,
We will forever ask.
As we try to swallow this,
It will never pass.
I wish I woke you before you left,
So you would not sleep forever.
Our ties run so deep,
The can never be severed.
We shared so much time at the rock,
Special places in Morro Bay,
Memories I will cherish forever,
I wish we were there today.

I do not need to pretend you are still here, because you are, Kim, I know this.

Traveling alongside the river,
Wishing the destination was different.
The last reason I wanted to visit your town,
Would be to say goodbye.
Seeing you born, a distant memory,
The thought you're gone, I want to push away.
We laughed so many times out loud,
We shared too many tears to count.
We were to live and look back together,
Many storms we both would weather.
No fate explains this conclusion,
Is this reality or an illusion?
Who would take such a precious soul?
Not enough time we all want more.
How can you slip away so quickly?
How will we ever say goodbye?
We could have never seen this coming,
Our tears for you will never dry.
I will always picture us old together,
The way it ought to have been.
We had so many more memories to share,
The way it ought to have been.
Can I hold on to the ideal?
Can I never let you go?
I came to your town to visit,
not to watch you go....

I know you will never truly leave us Kim, I love you so much and miss you forever. Your cousin Josh